Thank you for being here, and for reading my story. My name is Katarina (not to be confused with Katrina), and I’m a “habitual aborter”. This harsh medical term is more commonly (and appropriately) known as Recurrent Pregnancy Loss (“RPL”), a diagnosis only 1% of us identify with. 

If you’re offended by the term “habitual aborter”, take a second to imagine how it feels to be labeled as such. I wanted my babies, I wasn’t given a choice.

My journey began in January of 2020 when I first learned that I was pregnant. Almost as suddenly as it came, it went; I miscarried at/around 4.5 weeks. My husband and I were told that this type of loss is common (it is), and that it wasn’t likely to happen again. We were sad, and it was hard, but life went on.

Then, in July of 2020, we decided it was time to try again. Immediately, we were pregnant for the second time. But just like the first time, only having known we were pregnant for about a week, we learned that we had miscarried; we learned about the miscarriage on my husband’s 31st birthday.

In November of 2020, we started trying again, but it wasn’t until May of 2021 that we’d see another positive pregnancy test.

We were prepared this time, it was almost as if we knew it was coming; I miscarried again.

Although my OB said that we could start testing for answers after the second loss, he didn’t actually recommend that we start until a third loss. So there we were, finally encouraged to look for answers.

Many blood tests and an ultrasound later, we had no explanation for our losses.

In August of 2021, we began trying yet again, and in December we were pregnant for the fourth time. We were hoping to share the good news with our families on Christmas, but unfortunately, we wouldn’t get the chance. The day after receiving the good news that our HCG levels were appropriate, I noticed some minor spotting. We immediately accepted what we knew would be true, what would be confirmed with another blood test a few days later- another miscarriage.

We were pregnant for the fifth time in September 2022, but the pregnancy resulted in yet another miscarriage.

We’re still searching for answers and praying for our rainbow baby. In the meantime, we’re happy, otherwise healthy, and loved by so many.   

I currently live in Wisconsin with my husband Sam, our pup MJ, and our rabbit Buddy.