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Music Mondays- Survivin’ by Bastille
There isn’t all too much I want (or need) to say about this one. I mostly just want you to be aware that “I’m surviving” as a response to “how have you been?” or “how are you doing?” isn’t necessarily a bad or sad thing. I may not have everything that I want in life,…
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International Bereaved Mother’s Day 2022
In honor of International Bereaved Mother’s Day, I want to talk about finding peace in the midst of trauma. As part of Sexual Assault Awareness Month (April), I participated in an event called We Step Into the Light. I was randomly paired with an artist that was tasked with creating a work of art that…
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Music Mondays- Iris by the Goo Goo Dolls
Instead of going through the lyrics like I did last week, I think you’ll better understand this song from my perspective if I tell you the story of when I first connected this song to pregnancy loss. It was during our fourth pregnancy/miscarriage- the roller coaster weekend where we learned that our HCG numbers were…
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The Third Time Was Supposed to Be a Charm (Our Third Miscarriage, Part One)
Our third pregnancy came after many months of trying to conceive. Having gotten pregnant so easily the second time (and only after 6 months of “being less careful” the first time”), I was frustrated that things took so long this time around. Infertility is generally defined as being unable to conceive within 12 months of…
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Music Mondays- We Intertwined by The Hush Sound
I recently participated in a qualitative research study where I paused throughout my day to take five pictures of things or situations that related to my recurrent pregnancy loss. I’ll likely share my pictures and my explanations with you at some point in the future, but before that, I want to start something called “Music…
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Puppy Princess Mary Jane
Mary Jane (MJ) and I found each other in June of 2014. I had just quit my first professional job (selling radio ads in Madison), broken up with Sam, packed my car, and drove alone to Colorado. I had a couple of good friends from college living out there and decided it was time to…
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“No Living Children”
I was recently selected to participate in Narrative Inquiry in Bioethics’ call for stories of pregnancy loss. Narrative Inquiry in Bioethics is a journal of qualitative research and I’m honored to be one of the twenty that were selected to write for this particular study. My 300-word proposal explained how I want to highlight the…
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Fool Me Once, Shame On You… (Our Second Miscarriage)
Our second miscarriage left me feeling naïve and angry. This wasn’t supposed to happen again. It was exciting to get pregnant the first month that we tried to conceive following our first miscarriage. I couldn’t believe our luck! In my mind, getting pregnant so quickly meant that the first miscarriage was just a “fluke”. How…
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Isn’t it Ironic? (Mini Post)
I’m working on a more “typical” post for y’all, I promise! I’m just having a rough time getting through my thoughts. I have a lot to say about our first, third, and fourth miscarriages, but not a lot to say about the second. The first shook me the hardest, the third made us “officially” part…
Living with Recurrent Pregnancy Loss
Tales of a Habitual Aborter
Living with Recurrent Pregnancy Loss 